"I know that it will only take a few seconds to strike a conversation with you. It seems all easy. Yet every time, I scroll to your contact I will only find myself stuck not knowing what to do. It affects me so much probably because you mean so much to me. I can't decide what's more important and what's dearest towards me anymore". Another social dilemma phenomenon that people will experience from time to time. Surely, I find it indeed relatable in my life.
I am just afraid that I am bothering your peace
I see your feeds all over my social media platforms and thought that you might be better off without me. I am worried that my text will ruin your mood. Yes, I may be over thinking but again, who will be there to answer my insecurities? After all, I only want to see happiness in you and the best for you. I guess I can settle my emotions myself. I just, just cannot take risks on this matter.
It isn't just my responsibility to keep this relationship alive
You are on my mind, I miss you. I should not text you this time round because I shall wait for you to start the conversation first this time. It isn't about being childish but I want to know whether you will reciprocate or will even think of me. That's that, nothing more complicated than this.
I am afraid to know how you are doing
I am no longer part of your life. I know we are emotionally hurt and as much as I love you, I know you might be better off alone or if not, living a happier life with your new partner. Whatever news or information gets to me will only kill me to hear it.
Everything remains status quo
Nothing will change. Both of us are over with compromising and trying. We come from different ends of the universe and we will have to accept this fact. Even if we had planned something together and tried it out. The outcome will still remain the same.
The thought of not receiving a reply
Why did I even text you despite knowing that will happen? I regretted it so much. At the very least, I can now tell myself to let go and readjust my priorities.
I have no idea what I would end up saying to you
I will not say that I miss you. Rather, I will let my messages to you suggest that. Do I hope for things to have gone another way? That I miss hearing your voice, laughter, and your company? Do I want sympathy out of all the confessions that I am about to make? Finally, I decided to put my phone away than to go through all these troubles myself once again.
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