The Beautiful Truth In Seeking Happiness

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We have all experienced before happiness in our lives and there are many things that can make us happy on a daily basis. Lately, I've been thinking what real happiness is. If we were to discuss its definition, it would be a process that isn't very straightforward and rather, subjective. The fact that everyone was born into different family backgrounds and have had different groups of friends sets everyone on a distinct journey in learning values and experiences.

Having said that, this means everyone has a different perspective of happiness, right? 

When you think of happiness, what comes to your mind? There are plentiful things, right? For instance, a successful career, being in a relationship, having quality time with family, being wealthy to own a flat and start a family and the list continues. I will allow your imagination to take you through what real happiness should be and means to you.

Now in your list to happiness, who decided that these items will guarantee happiness for yourself? 

We were all born into the World being clueless about happiness, we lived and learned knowledge from our loved ones and the people we met in our society. Today, the idea of happiness could be largely influenced by what the society has painted it to be, and as time passes, it has led to people thinking that these criteria should exist for one to be happy.

My intention in questioning whether these items would make you happy comes out of goodwill to prevent anyone from being caught up with the idea of happiness that society has created. I was a victim of it many years ago. I followed the path where some people walked before and gained positive valuation from people. In the process, I lost myself and my values.

I want you to know that any decisions you make must be justified by your own principles. Nothing is worth more than holding on to the values you stand by. What you admire and desire should not make you do things that contradict your values. Comparing yourself with others is fine, but it isn't when it pains you and everyone around you, and when you look down on yourself. You do not need anyone's evaluation to know that you are valuable. We all play a vital role and contribute to the society at the end.

It's perfectly alright if you trip over a rock today, what's important is that you must know how to stand up and realize what's worth fighting for and seeking for. Today, you might not have an answer on what happiness means to you, but slowly and surely, you will discover it.

Walking Away Is Never Easy

We developed closer bonds in the midst of knowing more about each other. We danced in the grey area of almosts and everything seemed promising. Carefree conversations and meetings till late night made our hearts raced. Despite all the butterflies in our stomach, we were still conscious of the fact that there is a slight chance we might not end up together. But I am glad that we tried. :)

This post comes shortly after my self reflection over the past few years. 

Leaving didn't mean I took you for a ride

I didn't want the both of us to sink even deeper. I left because I felt that you deserved someone better than me. It's not an excuse for me to ditch the entire date. My feelings for you were genuine but I experienced inferiority complex because I could not provide you with what you wanted to the fullest at that moment. Even if our very journey was a short one, I enjoyed it. I have held on longer than I should have because I did think we would end up together one day, I hope you could feel it. :)

I left because I came to my realization

We had non-stop conversations every day and while everything lasted, I got to admit that the commitments made were worthwhile. I left because I grew to realize that we are people from different worlds. Don't get me wrong, I was willing to have it a go but circumstances had me to hesitate about whether it was the right time to take a risk. Hence, I walked away because I realized I deserved someone different and you deserved someone you're sure of.

Leaving because I loved you too much

It was a constant struggle between keeping you by my side and you wanting to do the things you love. In this instance, priorities proved to be an important factor which decides if everything still mattered. I left because I know you will soar to greater heights and be better off without me.